My big kitty,
My Little Man,
So handsome and pretty,
I don’t know if others could understand.
Some might say, “He’s just a cat,”
But he is so much more than that
Little was my first friend,
After I moved to a new state
I would walk to the pet store and spend
Hours with him, knowing it was fate.
I remember when we first met.
You were just a string bean of a kitten;
Playful, wild, feisty, sweet,
and not grown into your big paws yet.
I was immediately smitten
When you came up to me to meet;
Gave me a sniff then bumped your head
Against me. I said,
“You are a very special feline,
And I want you to be mine.”
You captivated my heart
That made me start
To sing to you,
“You Are My Sunshine;”
And you were, too.
Every visit, every day,
He made me happy when my skies were grey.
I had moved from the desert of Arizona
To the rainy forests of Oregon.
I had no idea what was in store then,
When I decided to own ya.
You were by my side through it all;
You would come racing home when I would call.
I tried to keep you inside,
But you were persistent;
And would not be denied.
You were insistent,
No matter how hard I tried.
So I let you roam free
And trusted you to be
Capable to keep yourself well;
And this waiting I’m in right now is hell,
Because I just don’t know
If something is wrong;
If I should let the idea of you coming home go;
If you’re fine and adventuring along;
And I should just go with the flow.
What if you eat normal cat food from others
And then it bothers
Your urinary tract?
We were/are both still gluttons,
And that is a fact.
You knew how to push my buttons;
Smart enough to be out of range from the spray bottle during early AM wake ups,
And intuitively comforting me throughout high school break ups.
You were my only consistent friend from middle school, through high-school,
And after graduation.
Some cats may be cool,
But you are on your own level, no hesitation.
And when you almost died,
I promised myself I would make it up to you,
If you pulled through to stay.
Stay with me please.
Come home and play,
Play with me please.
Our love was shown through
Cuddling, us meow ‘talking’,
Back and forth,
Lazing under the catnip bush of course,
Or going out walking,
You got much bigger and I’ve grown too.
I cherish you, and you adore me;
You being there for me,
helped me through my divorce,
When my husband acted out with violent force.
You being dependent on me,
Helped me to not commit suicide.
You are part of the reason why I haven’t died.
I don’t give a fuck what anyone else says,
You are irreplaceable in my eyes.
You are so unique you mes-
You are my Familiar;
My Divinely gifted companion.
I don’t care the time or cost;
I will never abandon
That you’re not forever lost.
I’ll do my best to cope
Because You were the Divine Spirit
That chose to have me
Be part of your life.
I can almost hear it;
I can almost see;
Your return through my strife.
You shared my journey
From girl, to woman, to wife;
And now divorcé learning to stand in my own right.
I know you are a wild thing.
You always loved to fight;
Because you were protecting
Your loved ones and your space.
Please know you always have a place
In my home and in my heart.
You are a work of living art;
And I will grieve
If this is where you depart
From my daily living.
I am forever grateful to you for giving
Me the pleasure
Our life together.
We were an inseparable pair,
Little and Heather.
I cherish my clothes covered in your hair,
Because it reminds me of when you were there.
You are my Little Man;
My furry pet-child.
Your heart will always be wild.
Please come home when you can.